First time I had sex, I was raped.
First marriage failed.
First gymnastics meet, I dislocated my elbow.
First job in my field, teaching English, was perhaps the worst job I’ve ever had in my life.
*Cue Debbie Downer waaah waaaah.*
Clearly, my track record of firsts isn’t necessarily full of gold star stickers and smiley faces.
That’s just not been my life experience.
Until I met my husband. I’m not sure, but I suspect that God has anointed him with an innate sense of what I need and the uncanny ability to meet my needs without my saying a word.
When I met him, things changed.
In reality, I think my perspective simply switched gears, probably thanks to three years in my twelve-step recovery program. I started noticing every first in our relationship, and I’d never done that before. I began to cherish all our moments.
First time we met at our mutual friend’s birthday party. First time he called me a few days later after my sister sent him a Facebook message, begging him to call me so I would shut up about him. First double date with that same mutual friend and his fiance.
And all the firsts he introduced me to–and still does. First time going to dozens of local landmarks and beautiful places. First time taking a road trip on a four-wheeler. First time on a boat on the White River. First time catching trout and going limb-lining for catfish. First time going hunting (successfully securing venison for future date nights, I might add). First time baking cupcakes from scratch. First time being serenaded by banjo.
First time in my life that anyone has ever paid enough attention to my eyes lighting up at the sight or mention of things and then making those things happen–whether it be a rickety old farmhouse that no one else might want, a safe new vehicle for our baby, or a genuine Rambo knife.
He knows me.
And the most beautiful thing is taking place in our lives.
We have the opportunity, every single day, to create firsts with our daughter. And thanks to my husband’s hard work and his commitment to our family, I get to be here at home with her to see each first as it unfolds.
First time petting our cats or letting our dog Clyde lick her chubby fists. First time seeing a tractor scooping up dirt. First time touching the base of an ice-cold glass. First time rolling over and shining with glee and pride in her accomplishment. First time seeing a river or a lake. First time going to church. First time dancing with her Papaw, waltzing through our kitchen. First time being held by the people we love the most.
Great memories. Positive experiences. Joyful smiles. God-filled goodness.
It’s like my life has started all over again.
7 thoughts on “First”
Bethany you are amazing, your strength and perseverance keeps me in awe of you!! You are an inspiration and deserve this happiness. Love ya, mean it!
Thank you LaTresha! Love you right back.
Your awesomeness never ceases to amaze me, lol ;). You are so strong and have bounced back after many people would have given up. I am so happy for you and your family. Hugs my friend!
Thank you Casi. Love you! I’m just thankful God made me so stubborn, I guess, or maybe I would have just given in/given up.
thanks for sharing your “firsts” with us. you have many more coming your way that will be joyful, awe inspiring and will make wonderful memories to cherish.
Thanks Mary. I just look forward to every day now.
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Thankful for the chance to start over.